goodbye october.

It's been a month of decisions, and obstacles. However good things also came along.

The weather was beautiful, and I've had a lot of adjusting to do.

The end of the month means the beginning of a new journey for me, as I've said in my other blog posts.

The colors of the trees are changing and I hope that I will be changing for the better too. I really love this season it is beautiful looking at the leaves change.

but through all that change some flower bushes still held strong and have gorgeous flowers (although I could do without the bees). 

What do you guys expect or are hoping for this November?

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

my journey to independence. part 1

Ok, so I said I wanted to take you guys on a journey with me and I'll start from the beginning.

Last semester I had a relapse in my condition and my health and course work suffered greatly from it. I ended up taking a medical withdrawal from the semester and started treatment. I've known for some years now that I had lost my independence because of my disability, but I never reached out for help. In my mind, it was my problem and I needed to deal with it myself. At this point I didn't even know that I had a disability... So for the most part there was a lot of denial in my part even though I had clear relapses every year. Until all of it got pent up and kind of exploded last semester.... Since I have been in treatment, but I also felt/realized that I'm dependent. I need to be with a guardian (family or friend) most of the time. I knew I didn't want to live this way my whole life. I want to be able to live for myself, so I started researching and found out that one of my best options would be getting a service dog. I researched every single organization out there that would have the type of dog I need and I found Little Angels Service Dogs.

I took my first step into my journey to independence 

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

From where I stand

From where I stand on my road to recovery. Taking everything one day at a time. Slowly,  but surely. Recovery is a long and tedious road, but thankfully I'm not alone.

#vscocam

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

I want to take you on a journey with me.

I'm not good at sharing personal aspects of my life, but I forgot the reason that I started this blog was to help me cope.

So in an attempt to open up more (a sad attempt at that) I'm going to invite you guys to come with me (keep me company) on a journey.

I'm in the process of getting a service dog and thought it would be a good idea to record the process here since it's such a stressful process. I'm not at the stage where I'm comfortable with my disability, in fact it's a source of embarrassment for me. I'm very disappointed in myself, but this isn't what this blog post is about. That is a story for another day.

All I want to ask for now is if you guys would like to join me in this journey?It is a new stage in my life that I'd like to share. At the same time maybe learn about each other too........

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

slowly, but surely.

Slowly,  but surely I'm getting better.

It's an uphill battle, so I'm taking it one step at a time

Hopefully I'll get better

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

Today is my first time leaving my dorm for about a week and a half.....

I have some serious things to think about my future and my health

i'm a shitty person....

Every time I open my mouth I mess things up.....

I'm a horrible friend
I don't deserve my friends
They deserve better





I'm a pathetic person... why am i even allowed to live?

I'm scared

I don't know why, and I don't know what's happening to me but I feel scared.

I'm terrified, not knowing how I feel yet feeling all these emotions. Physical and emotional pain.....

I'm not stable emotionally right now.... For a moment I feel happy, then I feel worthless.

I don't know what to do with myself right now.... I just want to sleep and not deal with anything.

it's been a long and hard time

hey guys, I've been gone for a couple of months now..... 

Well, I've been dealing with a lot and have been of the internet for a while due to some health issues that I'm not comfortable speaking of just yet.

I've dedicated this time on concentrating on myself and getting better. I'm starting to prepare myself for this upcoming semester, not without much apprehension....

I'm happy to be going back, yet worried and other feelings all at the same time. A lot of mixed feelings.

I also wanted to update you guys in some small parts of my summer that brought me some happiness

like a new family member

 

her name is Nina, she's a rescue(she was abused)  and helping her through her tough time has helped me in a way.

she has also brought happiness to Minki, now they are inseparable though not without hardships. it took a  while to get Nina used to her new sister and forever home, she was so skittish and shy at first (we're still working on that).

I'm happy yet a bit sad, because I'll be leaving my loves in a little more than a week and won't see them till December.

how have all of you been?

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

Fridays. and stuff.

hi hi! It's been so long!
It's midterm time right now, so I've been more absent than usual... also since my phone had died I felt more lost than usual. My replacement phone got here this week, so now I'm back hopefully for good!

A little update on life:
~ last week was my birthday

~I've been spending a lot of time with my roommate planning for next semester's dorm decor, and admiring her awesome blue lights

~I made iced tea for the first time! I'm not much of a tea person, but I'm trying to be more open and trying different kinds of tea. I really like the iced passion one I made (the packaging is adorable also), I think I might try it with lemonade next time.

What tea flavors do you guys like? What do you recommend I try?

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

ice days and gifts

There is still some ice around and classes where cancelled for today, so I've stayed in watched a little tv and decided to start buying birthday gifts for two of my friends.  They both have birthdays in the same month, actually their birthdays are two days apart! Which is a little hard on my budget (read broke college student), but I'm done and with a minimal blow to my budget too!

I'm actually pretty happy with what I got them, so let me show you some of the stuff!

For the first friend it was a little tricky to pick out gifts, she is the oldest of our group and by far the most mature. She is really motherly, which makes her the mother of our small group. We lovingly call her umma, anyways she is intelligent, sporty, organized, loveable, and we both share a love of animals. We literally spend ours talking about dog, cats, and any type of animal we've been interested lately. So for her gift I decided to buy her a sporty backpack and since she has a love for organizing materials I got her a little desk organizer. I got both of them a cute backpack shaped coin wallet in their favorite colors (I couldn't resist it was too cute).

For the second friend the most difficult part of getting her a gift is that she is so easily pleased with anything. I really wanted to get something that she would really like, so I sat and thought about what I've seen she likes/uses the most. Whenever I see her she always likes using tote bags (mainly the some one), so I decided to get her a new one, I also got her a pencil case since she always has her head in the clouds (maybe she won't lose pens and pencils as easily with it). And lastly the same cute coin purse, but in green.

It's not much, but I thought them through with care and love, hopefully they'll like them ^^

So, how have all of you guys been? How has your week been? Tell me about it

*On a side note: My birthday is next week! I'm not big on birthdays, but I'm a little excited this year~

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

of a little snow and ice.

The trees and the bushes have all been covered in a thin layer of ice, and they all look so beautiful. I took pictures with my tablet, but as you can see they're not the best quality. In moments like this I miss my phone's camera. Oh well!

Anyways, outside it looks so wintery (that's a word, right?) and I love it. The sidewalks and the street are covered by a layer that is kind of like a mix of snow and ice, so we have to be extra careful while walking outside and driving.

For now I think I'll stay inside and eat a croissant while I drink some hot chocolate. I might go outside again later with my roommate to see other places and maybe take more pictures.

Weather reports say we are getting snow tonight, so I am very excited! To everyone in the South area getting hit with the ice storm (and to anyone who is somewhere cold right now), stay safe and stay warm.

I wish you lots of hot chocolate (or any type of hot beverage) and cuddles.

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

and here we go again...

A winter storm warning has been issued for the first part of the week for North Georgia. Ah, this is going to get interesting.

We haven't had a winter like this in a couple of years! Apparently, an ice storm is going to pass through... I've never really seen an ice storm before, so I don't know how to feel about it. We'll see how this week goes!

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

long time no blog.

Hey guys! it's been a while, hasn't it? Well it's been a busy week/weekend for me from my cellphone dying to a friend visiting and staying over for the weekend.

Remember how my phone battery died about a week or so ago? I had ordered a new one and it came in the mail this week. I was so excited to finally be able to use my phone again, so I was really disappointed when I put it in my phone and it did nothing. The actual problem wasn't the battery at all. My phone had completely died (they call it sudden death syndrome, I believe), so I had to send it back to my parents in order to either exchange it or get a new phone. If I do get a new phone, which do you guys recommend? I prefer phones with good camera quality (as I'm an instagram and vsco cam addict).

On the bright side my friend came to visit this weekend! She graduated, but she lives about an hour and a half away from campus. We went bowling, shopping, and out to eat. We also spent a lot of time watching movies, and watching old tv shows reminiscing of our childhoods. It was really nice to see her, because even though we all talk through kakaotalk everyday we still miss each other. It was also fun just sitting in the living room, talking about pets and how we both have a desire to adopt a pet at some point (her when she gets her own apartment, and me when I graduate undergrad).

Since I don't have my phone here are some pictures and links to things I've found interesting throughout the week.

~this little phoneography kit from photojojo

~this cute little projector for instagram photos

~these beautiful lights 

~this magical picture

~this cute samoyed print

Enjoy your (hopefully) lazy Sunday and brace yourselves for the week ahead!

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

lazy friday

I've spent the majority of the morning laying in bed not really doing anything. Until my roommate invited me to go to the small coffee place near the dorm. I got some hot chocolate (instead of coffee which is a surprising) and a fresh baked croissant.
I haven't had a croissant in a while, and oh how I missed it! Yesterday was national croissant day, and I had no croissants to eat so sad. Oh well it was a day late, but I still got to eat one!

My roommate is going home for the weekend so I don't know what I'll do. I'll probably spend it online window shopping to be honest. What do you guys have planned for the weekend?

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

online shopping is my weakness, please send help

(I'm in love)

Wow I'm impressed with myself two posts in a day! So I don't have any homework left for this week which means I can waste time on the internet (yay!). I've been looking through blogs I follow and from there I've gone to online shops and I've found beauties! Like this shirt look at how pretty it is! I want it so bad, I don't really own shirts like this and I feel like I need one. And let me bring attention to my cardigan obsession by referring you to this, this, and this. Lets not forget sweaters, here, here (so pretty but so expensive), and here. There are so many other sweaters, but if I keep linking them I'd never finish.
I'm saving up for a camera, and when I do get one I want this baby to carry it around.

So is online shopping your weakness? If not, what is? If yes, show me some of your favorite finds!

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

cooking and thinking of home

I made myself lunch today instead of reheating tv dinners or leftovers, some gnocchi with four cheese tomato sauce. Excuse the bad quality picture, my phone's battery died so I can't use it and took a picture with my tablet (which leaves a lot to be desired tbh). Anyways, since I can't use my phone I haven't talked with my mom in a while. Frankly, I miss my family and I miss being home and I miss my pets (read babies). It's hard being so far away from home, but it's harder being far away and not being able to communicate with my family everyday. I wonder what I've missed, how everyone is doing, even how the weather has been (granted I can google that, but I prefer asking my parents about it). It would be easier if my mom used facebook, but she doesn't have/want to. Hopefully by next week my new battery will be here. It won't change much from being homesick, but at least I'll be able to talk with the family.
Oh and the snow is slowly, but surely melting away.... It makes me a little sad because it might not snow again for a couple of years and I might not be here when it happens. Bye snow, I enjoyed your company for the short while you were here~~~
Have a great rest of the day you guys

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

a little snow.

It snowed yesterday! It hadn't snowed here since about 2011 so everyone was pretty excited. Although it didn't snow much at least we got to play a little bit.

I'm hoping it doesn't melt away quickly, although that seems unlikely.

I haven't posted in a while because my phone's battery died so now I have to get a new one and I had a test yesterday (have two tomorrow, wish me luck!)

Enjoy your day!

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

coffee time is me time

It's saturday and the dorm is quiet right now, with some roommates sleeping (meaning just one) and the  others not here for the weekend. So I made the best of this time by making myself some coffee and going through different websites. I've been on etsy, bed bath & beyond, target, and makeup sites for a little while now. Without buying anything yet, because I'm on a small budget right now. I did make a list and bookmarked some of the things I liked and wanted.

I've been wanting some garlands to decorate our dorm and I found these three cute options
Also, I've been on a coffee mug searching spree (because with two new coffee machines I clearly need more mugs than what I own) and I want [read need] these in my life.

I'm going to keep looking for ideas to decorate our dorm room in a cute, but simple way. We don't relly like anything over the top or overwhelming. Do any of you have any good ideas? Or any decorating blogs to recommend? I'm all ears.. or eyes(?) I'm open to ideas at this point really.

Well I'm going to spend the rest of my day doing my nails, studying a bit, looking up diy decorating ideas, and watching some shows with my roommate. What are you guys up to this Saturday?

Ah I hear my roommate's door opening so I guess she's awake now, bye!

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

calm friday

 

I just got back from eating with friends~  It doesn't really feel like a friday to me, it's been a pretty chill and calm day.

I went to the store and then for dinner with my friends right after class, so I haven't been in the dorm for long today.

We got some t-discs for Momo the tassimo and we're so excited to finally use it! Other than that I found out I can't use my card here at all so I have to wait for a check now, and that's all

Have a good weekend everyone

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

another day.

 

Hi, so it's another day in class nothing really interesting happened today. Yesterday night though it was pretty frustrating... I couldn't go to the store, because I had problems with my atm from back home.

I'm not from the states so my mom has to send me money through an account I have back home and then I normally withdraw the money from an atm machine and deposit it in my account here in the states. For some reason none of the atms that I usually use was accepting my card, so now I have to wait about a week for a check from my parents to arrive.

So, I'm broke for a week. Ah...the life of a college student.

I'm not mad or anything though, I'm actually pretty calm. Why get mad? It's not my fault (or my mom's) so I just have to move on.

btw look at how cute our window looks now! I added a plant (fake bc clearly we don't have a green thumb) and some cute solar bobble head type of things... idk what their called. What do you guys think?

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

It's finally here!!~

 

First of all, hi! So after class today I went to check the mail and~~~~~~

It's finally here!!!! I've been waiting for this package for weeks omg

This is my early birthday gift from my parents and I'm so excited to try it out (so is my roommate btw)

 

I got a tassimo! I was so excited when I was unpacking it, it's so beautiful

Just look at it! it's a decent size, for a dorm that its (we don't get that much space, especially if it's shared between four people). Anyways, my roommate and I are going out to buy some t-discs in order to try out this baby later tonight.

ah I'm so happy, btw we named it Momo because we seem to name everything.... even our laptops.. yeah
Have a great rest of the day guys~~~

Con amor, 

Yaris ♡

guide dog puppies!!~

 

Hey hey, long time no see! Just kidding it's only been a couple of days...

I've been catching up on homework, so i took a little break.

Anyways I saw the two cuties in the top picture while waiting for the bus, they were so adorable. The smallest one sits behind me in class and is always sniffing my leg. Guide dog puppies on campus are the cutest things ever

  

I took this picture on Sunday morning, my mom bought us these orchids about a year ago and look they are dying on us

We've tried everything, but I feel like the temperatures inside the dorm are killing them slowly

our poor babies we should have taken better care of you, I'm so sorry...

On another note have a great week filled with wonder~~~~

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

saturday findings.

 

happy saturday everyone~~~ When I woke up today I looked out the window and noticed how empty campus looked. It's a long weekend so most people went home. Ahh it seems like such a nice day outside, but there's not much to do since the busses on campus don't run this weekend.

Ok so last night I had a good time with my friends, we talked  and ate together. It was a pleasant outing, we also got these nice journals that the student union was passing out. Today I decided to deck mine out in some stickers I got as a gift and while I was searching my drawers I find a really pleasant surprise.

As I opened one of my drawers I found all of the cards, postcards, and gift cards I've received since I left home for college. It really warmed my heart reading the old ones from people who care about me back home, and all of the ones from the friends that I've made here. I never thought that I would make such quality friends here in this small college town, but I did and they make the hard college days bearable. I'm so blessed and extremely thankful for all the people that have popped into my live.

What small everyday things are you guys thankful for?

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

morning break

After my morning class I went to this little coffee place near my dorm to get something to eat. I have a serious obsession with croissants, so I got myself two. When I got to my room I made myself a mocha latte using my roommate's keurig (our latest obsession) and sat on our living room sofa.
I enjoy those small moments between classes when I can just sit and relax with a cup of coffee while looking outside the window or doing whatever small thing I can think of.

Anyways, I'm going out tonight with my roommate and our friend, who we haven't seen in a while, it'll be fun!
I'll post some pictures (if I take any) tomorrow, bye~

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

things to think about

 

Yesterday my roommates and I found out that one of the students that lived in the dorm on top of ours died.

Normally when things like this happen we see them on the news and they seem so far away.

The fact that it happened not only in our building, but the room one floor above us makes it much real (not that it wasn't real to begin with). It made me think.... we always hear that life is short (very true) and that we should make the best of it. Have I made the best of it? Have I experienced new things? Tried to be adventurous? Made the best of the opportunities I have been blessed with? These and several other thoughts crossed my mind. I also thought about my friends/roommates, have I told them or showed them how much I appreciate them?

I don't make New Year resolutions, because I know I won't see them through.... However I feel like there are so many things I need to improve about myself so maybe I'll give it a try!

Even if it's just on little everyday things (that might seem insignificant) let's try to better ourselves!

Con amor,

Yaris ♡