i'm a shitty person....

Every time I open my mouth I mess things up.....

I'm a horrible friend
I don't deserve my friends
They deserve better





I'm a pathetic person... why am i even allowed to live?

I'm scared

I don't know why, and I don't know what's happening to me but I feel scared.

I'm terrified, not knowing how I feel yet feeling all these emotions. Physical and emotional pain.....

I'm not stable emotionally right now.... For a moment I feel happy, then I feel worthless.

I don't know what to do with myself right now.... I just want to sleep and not deal with anything.

it's been a long and hard time

hey guys, I've been gone for a couple of months now..... 

Well, I've been dealing with a lot and have been of the internet for a while due to some health issues that I'm not comfortable speaking of just yet.

I've dedicated this time on concentrating on myself and getting better. I'm starting to prepare myself for this upcoming semester, not without much apprehension....

I'm happy to be going back, yet worried and other feelings all at the same time. A lot of mixed feelings.

I also wanted to update you guys in some small parts of my summer that brought me some happiness

like a new family member

 

her name is Nina, she's a rescue(she was abused)  and helping her through her tough time has helped me in a way.

she has also brought happiness to Minki, now they are inseparable though not without hardships. it took a  while to get Nina used to her new sister and forever home, she was so skittish and shy at first (we're still working on that).

I'm happy yet a bit sad, because I'll be leaving my loves in a little more than a week and won't see them till December.

how have all of you been?

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

Fridays. and stuff.

hi hi! It's been so long!
It's midterm time right now, so I've been more absent than usual... also since my phone had died I felt more lost than usual. My replacement phone got here this week, so now I'm back hopefully for good!

A little update on life:
~ last week was my birthday

~I've been spending a lot of time with my roommate planning for next semester's dorm decor, and admiring her awesome blue lights

~I made iced tea for the first time! I'm not much of a tea person, but I'm trying to be more open and trying different kinds of tea. I really like the iced passion one I made (the packaging is adorable also), I think I might try it with lemonade next time.

What tea flavors do you guys like? What do you recommend I try?

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

ice days and gifts

There is still some ice around and classes where cancelled for today, so I've stayed in watched a little tv and decided to start buying birthday gifts for two of my friends.  They both have birthdays in the same month, actually their birthdays are two days apart! Which is a little hard on my budget (read broke college student), but I'm done and with a minimal blow to my budget too!

I'm actually pretty happy with what I got them, so let me show you some of the stuff!

For the first friend it was a little tricky to pick out gifts, she is the oldest of our group and by far the most mature. She is really motherly, which makes her the mother of our small group. We lovingly call her umma, anyways she is intelligent, sporty, organized, loveable, and we both share a love of animals. We literally spend ours talking about dog, cats, and any type of animal we've been interested lately. So for her gift I decided to buy her a sporty backpack and since she has a love for organizing materials I got her a little desk organizer. I got both of them a cute backpack shaped coin wallet in their favorite colors (I couldn't resist it was too cute).

For the second friend the most difficult part of getting her a gift is that she is so easily pleased with anything. I really wanted to get something that she would really like, so I sat and thought about what I've seen she likes/uses the most. Whenever I see her she always likes using tote bags (mainly the some one), so I decided to get her a new one, I also got her a pencil case since she always has her head in the clouds (maybe she won't lose pens and pencils as easily with it). And lastly the same cute coin purse, but in green.

It's not much, but I thought them through with care and love, hopefully they'll like them ^^

So, how have all of you guys been? How has your week been? Tell me about it

*On a side note: My birthday is next week! I'm not big on birthdays, but I'm a little excited this year~

Con amor,

Yaris ♡

of a little snow and ice.

The trees and the bushes have all been covered in a thin layer of ice, and they all look so beautiful. I took pictures with my tablet, but as you can see they're not the best quality. In moments like this I miss my phone's camera. Oh well!

Anyways, outside it looks so wintery (that's a word, right?) and I love it. The sidewalks and the street are covered by a layer that is kind of like a mix of snow and ice, so we have to be extra careful while walking outside and driving.

For now I think I'll stay inside and eat a croissant while I drink some hot chocolate. I might go outside again later with my roommate to see other places and maybe take more pictures.

Weather reports say we are getting snow tonight, so I am very excited! To everyone in the South area getting hit with the ice storm (and to anyone who is somewhere cold right now), stay safe and stay warm.

I wish you lots of hot chocolate (or any type of hot beverage) and cuddles.

Con amor,

Yaris ♡